things and stuff...

Listening to: system of a down, toxicity album. wooo!

So my sleep schedule is officially fucked up. I was planning on sleeping in pretty late today but woke up at 9 instead. And I had gone to bed at 2, so I only got 7 hours of sleep. Which is like minimum for me because I'm a lazy bastard. I fell asleep around 6 this evening and woke up around 8:30. After that I still felt really physically tired and wanted to go back to sleep really bad, but my brain wouldn't let me. Plus I had a headache for some reason. I think the dry fall weather is drying out my sinuses a little. So what did I do? I stayed in bed until like 1. And mostly because I had a text and couldn't find my phone in the dark.

So I got up and started to wake up a little bit more. Drank some water and took some pain killers because my head still hurt. I went down to the kitchen to make some tea and I noticed a trail of ants going into the cupboards. The fucking ants were in MY food cupboard eating my fucking peanut butter!!! God damn ants! The ants piss me off so bad I almost feel violent while killing them. I violently spray them with whatever cleaner I can find first and I violently wipe them up with paper towels. And I also violently kill the ones that end up crawling up my arms. When I kill ants I like to pick them up between two fingers and then twist my fingers together so I know the ant is thoroughly mutiliated. Sometimes squishing them doesn't work! They're so frickin' small they don't get squished. It's madness. I hate them. I wish I could kill all of them. Beause, honestly, what is their purpose?

I've had a lot of tea today. It's delicious.

I woke up at 9 today because I got a phone call. Not from Bryan, though. It was a guy named Toby that I met at that party last week. It was really funny meeting him. He was all drunk and enthusiastic and wanted to smoke my weed and he called me a "Clean sheep" in Yiddish and he asked "CAN WE BE FRIENDS???" So, yeah, that's Toby.
It was actually my first phone conversation with him. I've pretty much lost all confidence in myself when it comes to getting to know other people, so naturally I was afraid to call him. Somehow he managed to keep me on the phone for like half an hour. I gotta say, he was much more enthusiastic over the phone than in person. It wasn't 100% comfortable hanging out with hin either. He ended up talking to his girlfriend online for like 45 minutes and I was sitting on the couch reading the dictionary.

Seriously, over the phone he sounded like he was practically going to get laid by me coming over. Like, since I smoked him out at that party naturally he would want to repay me. But on the phone he was like "yeah, I figured I owe you a bowl or a massage or whatever..."
He asked if I was still in bed like 3 times too.
Oh! And he called me a beautiful woman. He was like "awesome! I got a beautiful woman coming over!"
Yeah.

I'm actually really glad it wasn't like that when I was with him though. I mentioned "boyfriend" once in conversation and surprisingly enough he hasn't hit on me since! But, remember how I said he had a girlfriend? Yeah, in Tokyo. *shakes head*

So like 30 seconds after I decided to start packing up and go home, he's done talking with his girlfriend. I had mentioned that I was hungry and he started putting on his shoes. I said something like "You going somewhere?" And he said "You said you were hungry, right? Or...were you just going to go home?"
(I did not realize how sad his face got when he asked that until I was walking to my car...And at that point it would have been awkward to change my mind.)
And then I used the excuse of being a hermit and I had spent too much time outisde the house.

I think he's lonely! Just like me! I think we're both just awkward! Fo' real real. I feel like a douche for leaving now. Going to get food could've been cool. Next time!

he seems like a pretty normal guy. a socal dude. he has a surf board that looks pretty well used. Econ major. Into art...apparently speakes Yiddish. Yeah, normal.

peeeaaaacccccceeee!!11!