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it's too easy to be distracted.

The image files for 2 assignments and 1 reshoot are due tomorrow at 9 and I don't have any of them done. I could have had one of them done, but instead I had my eyebrows torn out, my face caked with makeup and my hair straightened...It was still fun though. I've never worn liquid eyeliner or lip liner, stick and gloss all at once. But I think I may have to wash my face a second time before I go to bed tonight.

I'm really worried about my loans, or the lack thereof. The economy is doing to bad, I don't know if anybody would give any money to my poor name at this point. But I still have to try. I have 2 days. I don't really know if anything bad will happen if I don't get the loans on time. I mean, I didn't have my first loans finalized until like, 4 days before I started school. I'm scared to call my grandparents. I don't want them to be mad at me. I'm thinking Tim might be a good idea for a cosigner since he actually has an income...

I think my school may just have to come second until I'm comfortable with the loan situation. I mean, it's week 4 and I haven't messed up so far. I can sacrifice a few late assignments to assure that I'll actually be here next session.

So I reeeeeeally want a laptop. I'm sick of this big, noisy, cord-ful desktop that my boyfriend built. Seriously though. It's so fucking loud. And no speakers. So if I'm using the computer, all I'm hearing is WWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
Not so much at the moment, though, since Bryan left me some good headphones.

I actually have some money to spare at the moment. As much as I'd like to spend it on a computer, I'm afraid my brakes get squealier and my air matresses gets flatter every day. So, I'm going to use my "extra" money for some past-due car maintenance. And hopefully I can get a real mattress soon, too. My body needs it.
I overheard Karla today say that she spent $100 at the MAC store on makeup. And I'm never going to get to spend money on myself ever again! *sob*

But aside from this shitty life of mine I have Bryan. And that makes it okay. Bryan and I have been together for a year and two months now. And he may have asked me a certain life decision type of question recently...It's also a possibility that I answered with "yes."
don't tell anybody.